Many, many years ago, I returned to school to obtain my second college degree. My youngest daughter was just a year old when I started back to earn my nursing degree. I thought I would loose my mind with two young daughters and trying to manage nursing school. But, I lived through it, and managed to earn my degree as well.
After graduating and passing my NCLEX, I started working night shift in the Emergency Department. This was not the norm, after graduating, new nurses were usually hired to work on the floor. But I got lucky. There were just three of us New Grads that were allowed into the department at that time. It was the first time that this particular ER hired New Grads. I had a great orientation that lasted almost six months and then, I was set free to fly on my own.
Right around that time I developed some insomnia. Severe insomnia. The combination of the stress of parenting young children, working in a busy ER as a New Grad, and having a terrible marriage situation fueled my inability to sleep.
I bought black out curtains, and it helped, a little. I purchased some ear plugs, not much help there as they always fell out. The room was kept cool, I didn’t have a cell phone at the time, so I didn’t use any screens or such before bed. I tried everything that was suggested. A glass of wine, yep tried it. Something stronger, you bet I did. Scented candles, hot baths, lavender body lotion, yes, yes, and yes. Nothing was helping.
I wasn’t able to sleep more that an hour or two at a time. I was a zombie and it was dangerous for me to be driving, working and/or taking care of my kids let alone critically ill people. Finally, I went to my doctor, and he prescribed a prescription sleep medicine called Ambien.
When I got home, I put fresh sheets on my bed. Ran a hot bath, and lit some scented candles. I wanted to set up a relaxing situation so there was no chance that I wouldn’t be able to sleep.
Then, I took the Ambien pill, and climbed into the hot bath. *
6 hours later, I woke up in the bathtub filled with cold water. Naked, and cold, with my head just above the water. The candles had burned down to the end and smelled like a near fire. My legs were numb from sleeping in a ridiculous position. (I am 6 ft tall and do not easily fit into a standard bath tub without folding up like a card table.) I struggled to pull myself out of the tub, and slid awkwardly out onto the bathmat, like a slippery butterball turkey trying to make it’s last getaway on Thanksgiving day.
I laid there awhile, waiting for the feeling to come back to my legs so that I could stand. The realization came to me as I laid naked and shivering on the bathmat, that I had nearly down myself in the hopes of getting a good night’s sleep. But stronger than that realization was another, the one where I realized that I HAD gotten a good nights sleep!
*Yes, I know that I am a nurse and should know better that this. Yes, I know that the box tells you NOT to do something like this. However, as I said, I was a ZOMBIE who had not slept a decent night in weeks if not months, my thought process was not what it should have been. I would have sold a kidney if someone could have promised me some good sleep at that point.
Thankfully, these days, no one is at risk of death if I do not get enough sleep. My family just has to deal with my sleep deprived grumpiness. I no longer take prescription sleep medicines as I have found that Valerian, or Balrian as it is called here in Germany work quite well for me.
Thanks to my dear cousin, Sandy, for reminding me of this story. Please wish her all the luck in the world in getting some sleep herself.
Anyone else have a similar story after taking Ambien? I know several people who get up and cook full meals, or eat everything in the Fridge and then blame the kids.
Oh thank fuck you didn’t do a Whitney on us. That was a lucky escape. So glad Vakerian is working out for you 👍🏻
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Yes. Valerian is awesome!
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I had terrible insomnia when I was on Tamoxifen. I don’t think I had a full night of sleep that entire year. When I was put on chemo I asked my doctor to prescribe me a sleeping pill. I tried one. I didn’t sleep and felt groggy for the rest of the next day. After reading some horror stories about Ambien I don’t think I’d ever try it. Now that I’m creeping up on menopause I’m having trouble sleeping again. I’ve tried every natural remedy and only one has worked. Valerian does seem to be helping me now. I still wake up in the night, but I can go back to sleep fairly quickly.
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Yes the dreaded menopause. I think that is why I have having sleep issues again. I have very little real stressors in my life now and I couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t sleeping. Then someone kindly pointed out my age for me
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Hahahaha! That was ‘helpful’ of them.
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Yes, very. Of course it was a male doctor. Menopause is always a great dx to cover all variety of complaints. “You know, you are getting to be of a certain age”. Aaagghhhh
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Wow 😮 close one! I hate it when I can’t sleep. Incidents like that really can put the wind up you,
At least you got some sleep 🙂
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Yes, I really did get some sleep. After that, I just climbed in to bed and not the bathtub, LOL. It never really let me sleep like that again, only 3 or 4 hours at a time so I just stopped taking it.
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Wow! I used to take Ambein. Once fell asleep at the computer and was rambling. My roommate had to help me to bed. Never anything worse than that!
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I have heard some really crazy stories. Most revolve around cooking and eating in the middle of the night with no memory of doing it. I once ate several bags of Halloween candy that I had hid from the kids. I then blamed them when I found all the wrappers in my bed….only to find out that I was the guilty one! Ambien was not the best drug for me, obviously.
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It definitely affects everyone differently.
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Oh wow you were so lucky!I never did anything like that, but I remember that terrible feeling of not enough sleep when I was trying to get a promotion and working crazy hours. I singed a strand of my hair whilst doing the simple task of cooking pasta, and realised that something had to change. For me it wasn’t not being able to sleep, I was just running on empty for too long, but I learned you can only go without sleep for so long before something has to give.
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Yes, it makes you crazy and unable to think rationally. Normally I am a pretty rational person, who thinks things through before climbing into a bathtub, drugged. LOL
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Wow–that’s pretty crazy. Glad you made it out alive, and that turkey image was priceless and funny–thank you! My sister used to wake up early for school, have a bath and fall asleep in there.
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Yes. If nothing else there is the turkey image. That’s hard to forget. Lol
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This is actually truly horrifying!! Insomnia is a curse though xx
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Ooh – that would be a shock to have such a quick reaction to your sleeping meds. So glad you came through unscathed. I’ve had bouts of not being able to sleep – but have done catch up during the day (luckily) but stress related often. Part of being human. There is a bit of humor in your story – and you relayed it so well. 🙂
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It was a crazy strong reaction for sure…but I think it was because I had gone so long without sleep that it just finally hit me. Thanks, I do think it is funny…after the fact.
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Wow, that’s really scary! I haven’t had any experience of that or insomnia thankfully. You always tell your stories so well Cherie!
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Oh, my God! That was a close call. I’ve had trouble sleeping over the last few years for various reasons. Now that I’m not worried about anything, I’m in a habit of sleeping between 5-6 hours and just read that less than 7 hours can cause dementia. I’m going to try adding aerobic exercise. I work out but don’t run or bike consistently. I’ll let you know how it goes!
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I walk several miles a day and lord knows Jack the dog wears me out. I feel physically tired, but just can’t sleep. So frustrating. Let me know how it goes for you.
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I will!
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Lucky escape…I must be one of the lucky ones I can sleep anywhere anytime…Head, pillow, die that’s me 🙂
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My husband is there same. Sound asleep in under 5 minutes.
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Yes to getting sleep but it must have been terrifying also. Maybe a good thing you are tall and barely fit and head your head above water!
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Yes. My height was a big plus during that event!
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